starting over…

So here I sit, typing away on my laptop at the local coffee shop, starting my second full week of my “new adventure.”

For those of you who have asked and wondered, it was not totally my idea to leave – I did not leave to take a new job or with a new plan in mind…  that is what makes this a true adventure – I have absolutely no idea what I am doing, where I am going, or what is going to happen next.

Here is what I do know, however:

  • The art and craft community is where my heart is and where I belong.
  • Making art, teaching, and inspiring others is where my passion lies and during those times do I feel the most alive and the most like myself…  it isn’t work.  It is sheer bliss.
  • God will not let me fall – I have faith that this is all happening for a reason and that I am meant to do something more, something better, something bigger.
  • I am terrified.
  • I am supported by a fabulous and wonderful husband, my sweet children, and all of the rest of my family and friends.  I don’t know how I will ever thank any of them or you for your support.
  • I need to get into a routine.  I need a routine – wake up at a specific time, with a task list, a schedule, and things to do.  Without that, I am floundering.  I haven’t meditated in days.  Laundry is piled up even though I am home.  I am unsure of what I am doing each day.  So, today I start with a schedule or at least defining one.
  • I will come out on the other side of this stronger, smarter, and happier.

Now, all of that said, I have ideas and plans – lots of them.  It is time to start to sort them out, figure out a plan of attack and a strategy so that I can move forward.

Today is day one – today I start over.



starting over… — 6 Comments

  1. I’m sorry to hear it wasn’t entirely your choice, but I have no doubt that where ever this adventure takes you it will be amazing 🙂 *hugs*

  2. I’ve been where you are right now. Sometimes feeling like God was moving me and I had to make a hard choice I didn’t want to make and other times the choice was made for us and you know what? If you’re faithful and God honoring, you’re absolutely right…he WON’T let you feel. He has always provided for us every step of the way and I know he will do the same for you. This IS an adventure–a biggie!! Be ready for things to twist and turn like a roller coaster…God likes to show off a little bit. 🙂 I’m excited for you…change brings about the very best in us and our creativity!

  3. It certainly makes it more challenging to adapt when it was not entirely your idea in the first place. I feel you’ve put a really positive face on it as you face uncertainties. Thanks for allowing others to follow along your inspirational journey!

  4. Yep its not easy I was in that spot after children were grown saying now what but as you said and I believe when one door closes another one opens. Which it does then it seems to slam shut again right now dont know when it will open but I’m after a month of feeling sorry for myself I’ve decided not to let it bring me down, live life one day at a time. I’m putting my problems in gods hands and going to have him help me. Although I’ve also decided not going down without a fight. So enjoy your family be there for them rake deep breaths and keep going. Oh yeah do the laundry it will make you feel better its done lol

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